It's 4AM in the morning yet I still am unable to sleep. Troubled,disturbed,distraught you name it. I'm in the state whereby I'm searching for something yet I really don't know what am I searching for. Acceptance?  Companionship? Friendship? Future? Love? I'm not really sure and this is the particular reason why I am partially frustrated. Nonetheless my personal life is doing fine,I've been called for an interview for my desired course,having someone to throw my weirdness at,spending time with family....I mean everything feels so perfect yet it isn't,you get what I mean like as if there is always something missing or not right but I'm rather contented.
So next Wednesday is my interview and I am currently updating my portfolio every single day just to make sure I'll give it my best on that day itself...So its pretty much a 50/50 situation but I really hope things turn out well.....If I'm going to my dream course and school that'll be awesome,and if I don't,well....all is good,at least I have someone to ride my unicorn with to school. Haha.
What's important now is that everything is going smooth now,and that I hope things get brighter from here onward. Just looking forward to the future and the things that would be happening there. Fate works in mysterious ways,I'll just see how and where it would lead me to...

I'm currently having migraine since this early morning so I'll try to make this post snappy if possible.
After receiving our posting results tears were shed and smiles were forced out. I can briefly say that it was unexpected,I received New Media in RP...I am rather contented but not fully satisfied.....So I did researched more on my course. I can say that I'm rather impressed for a course I placed in my last few choices..
So after few days of giving it a thought I told myself WHY NOT? So on the last day of the appealing day I went to TP to appeal head on over there for a design course...I met Afiq dinie for this and I'm glad that friendships can really last this long,I reminisce my days during Spec Course and Survival Course...Those were the days where I really bonded with so many strangers. From strangers to friends,to brothers from buddies. Haha,speaking of which the person who was at the counter service wasn't encouraging at all. NOT AT ALL,she gave me this frown and said that it isn't going to be easy and it is most unlikely that you could get in, so how?
I was appalled to hear these words from her,I just took the paper and applied for my desired course. I mean I worked so hard yet it isn't satisfactory but like what I said,I don't want to live in regrets.
The counselor for the School Of Design was rather friendly she told the counter receptionist that I at least made the last minute effort to come down and try and at least brought something to show her.... 2 Hours before the deadline to be honest. Well after that I left TP and bid Afiq Dinie farewell. I can't wait for poly life but yet I dread for it. Haha. Hoping for a good appeal result god willing. And for my friends who are repeating their O levels...GAMBATE! I've been through this before and all I can say is all the best andgood luck!
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Ahhhhhh. The picture above was snapped at USS ;)
A random shot without the baby realizing. Why did I chose Love?
To think about it,I don't know why. But to me,you can see it...the love of a father holding his child and enjoying their time somewhere in Singapore. This made me think as today was one of those rare days where I get to spend time with family and trust me I smiled to myself today after for so long. Haha. Blessed to have a such beautiful family... :))
And not only that,this goes the same for my old buddies. No matter how far apart we all go,some of us will be there and some here but we still all head for one goal and our friendship (I hope) will never fade.Cause without you guys,I'll never be who I am today. So thank you!
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And since its in the middle of the night,my thoughts is going haywire once more. I mean yeah I tend to think alot,my past,future and present. I think a lot for my age but I chose to rub it off thinking that all these are unnecessary but in the middle of the night my thoughts came back and blergh. I'm getting sleepy... Haha....Been texting with this certain awkward girl for ( ) days,LOL. And I find her really interesting...What I really like is her personality haha... bang2....Shall sleep now. Goodnight x_x